Miracles ... (continued)

Okay ... so, I titled yesterday's post "Miracles" ... today I realized that what I shared with you yesterday didn't say or show much in the way of Miracles, so I'm going to attempt to correct that today without going into a lot of detail about the characters involved.

 

For me, a miracle is something good that happens in the face of insurmountable odds. 

When everyone around you says "its impossible" and yet it happens anyway, that is a miracle, even more so when it is medically related and the professionals say that its impossible.

Many of us have heard of such stories, they seem to be happening more frequently these days; just type "medical miracles" into a search engine to read some of the stories.  The point here is that miracles DO happen, and they can happen to anyone of us.  I have personally witnessed a few of them, two in particular are undeniable miracles involving two of my animals. 
     I briefly introduced you to Benji, and I have yet to tell you about Hermes.

Benji  (in a nutshell)

A senior dog (approx. 14 yrs old) who was brought to me so that he wouldn't be euthanized.  Who knows how long he had been on his own as a stray when animal control finally picked him up and took him to the shelter. 

Seen by two veterinarians over the course of two months, each vet recommending euthanasia because of his extensive medical issues, his age, and his very aggressive personality.  How he escaped being PTS (put to sleep) and found his way to me, is a small miracle in itself. 

By modern medical standards, Benji's only hope would be in surgery and possible constant steroidal medications (according to the two veterinarians), the cost was/is more than I can afford at this time.  I treated him holistically and prayed.  I meditated, and asked a friend to do Reiki on him.

Things got better for awhile ... then, something happened to his leg.  He was fine that morning, but a few hours later he was crying in pain whenever he tried to move.  I couldn't get him to the vet because I couldn't touch him without getting bitten.  I medicated him with pain killers and arthritis meds, he barely ate, barely moved, and rarely got up to even urinate for nearly a week.  For most of that week, I sat with him outside (he can't come in the house because I won't risk the interaction between him and my cats or other dogs) ... its a good thing we live in Arizona, because the winter this year has been horrendous in most other areas of the U.S.  I averaged 4 hours of interrupted sleep during that week because every time he woke up from his sleep and didn't see me sitting with him, he would start barking ... and my neighbors needed to sleep too.

I was overwhelmed, exhausted, and only wanted him to be out of pain.  I was determined to follow my logical mind over my heart, but the thought voices that I hear and my heart won out.  Every day sees an improvement in his condition. 

I am still taking it One Day at a Time, but I KNOW that whatever happens it will be by God's Will and Grace, and not simply because a human-being thinks there is no hope. 

Benji has helped me to remember what Faith can do, that giving things over to a Higher Power has a way of creating miracles.  Lol, right now he is rolling around on the ground to itch his back ... I am so glad that I listened to my heart!    He is still having a bit of difficulty defecating, but (again) I am leaving it all up to God ... I am however, not just sitting idly by, I feed him soft food and give him a ton of vitamins to help the process along.

One of the things that I realized (remembered) in all of this is that ... I had let my "little" human mind get in the way of the healing miracle that was trying to take place.  So often the miracle is there already, just waiting to take place, but our negative thoughts and feelings create a kind of barrier keeping the magic from working.  When I realized this, and got out of the way, his healing began to move forward in leaps and bounds!

I also realized that I had allowed him to "cord" into me.    This happened because I was so intent on healing him, and so concerned with his well-being.  Once I realized this, I went into meditation and gently removed the cord.  I then reconnected him to his own God-Source and checked to make sure that it was clear and that the light energy was flowing strong.  This made an even stronger and quicker impact on his well-being.  I check his connection to Source on a regular basis, and stay out of the way so that he and God can do their own thing.

His being corded into me meant that not only was I being drained, but he felt all of my negative thoughts and feelings, making it even more difficult for him to heal.  And of course, if he was taking my energy to heal and my energy reserves were being used up, that meant that he was receiving less healing energy.  It's just not a good thing, but a mistake that many beginning healers make.  The best healers know that there is a Divine Reason for everything and all they do is to connect the ailing creatures to their own God Source and allow the process to take its own course. 

(Today Benji had his first semi-normal bowel movement!  Another small miracle without allopathic medicine.)

I first learned much of this with Hermes, a small kitten that taught me so much about love, letting go, getting out of the way, and miracles.

 

If you are reading this, I hope that you will add a small prayer to Benji's healing.

 

Tomorrow I will post the Miracle of Hermes the kitten.

Blessings!!

Miracles

Hi Everyone :-)

I only have a few minutes before I have to get ready for work, but I wanted to get this subject rolling.

I journal my experiences nearly every day, it helps me to see things more clearly and it also provides a record of sorts for others that I hope will be helpful someday.  Anyway ... I decided that I could start recording my experiences here on Blogger, giving everyone a chance to experience my life with me.  Some days my life is pretty normal with work, friends, and family; but more often than not, I have experiences that many would call miraculous or other-worldly. 

My current experience with Benji is one of those moments in my life, and it is happening now. 

Life is like a spider's web, there are many filaments that reach out in all directions, so there are many lessons connected to one event or person that has found its way into our lives.  So, although I will be sharing my miraculous relationship with Benji, it will also encompass the lessons that I am learning and the ones that I have already learned but have forgotten ... until now.



I posted a short video about Benji in a previous post.  I won't go into his details at this time because I want to jump right into this moment. 


Right now, Benji is resting comfortably in the shade outside while I write this from my back deck.  The wind is strong today, and although the sky was overcast this morning, it is a beautiful Arizona blue right now.  My back deck overlooks the Oak Creek River and I watch the trees with their new green leaves bend with the weight of the wind; the birds are singing and I can even make out the song of the Redwing Blackbird that makes the river its home.  Normally I would be sitting inside in order to avoid the dust being kicked up by the heavy winds, but Benji likes to know that I am nearby and so my laptop and I are braving the flying dust and dirt.  :-)


Benji is doing good today, and not so bad yesterday, but for more than a week prior to yesterday he was in pain and everyone told me to euthanize him.  I have been trying so hard to help him with the limited funds that I have at this time (huge balloon payment on my house), and things seemed to be getting better, but a week and a half ago on Thursday he took a turn for the worse.  It seemed there was nothing I could do for him but to call my horse doctor out and have him euthanized here at home since I couldn't even get him into my vehicle.

The equine vet came out but Benji refused to come out from under my house.  Benji's story is a bit involved, and I will bring you all up to date on his story at a later time.  For now I just want you to know this ...

Everyone that I have allowed to put in their two cents, has said to put him down.  Each person has had their own reasons, some to put him out of his "misery", some were concerned for my personal safety (he's bitten me before), and some didn't think I should waste my time on him when I could help another younger dog who at least had a chance at being adopted.

I searched my heart for the answer ... I prayed for guidance ... I meditated, I chanted, I toned, I called on others to do Reiki, to help with his medical bills, and for support.  Yesterday I couldn't think about him in pain anymore.

I began digging a grave for him in the corner of my yard.  He got up and followed me, and laid down near me while I dug his grave.  I stopped several times, my heart didn't feel right about it.  I listened to the thought voices flowing through my mind while I dug.  I insisted that I wouldn't let him suffer anymore, I tried to close my heart and let pure logic rule.  I stopped my digging again and went inside to call the equine vet out to the house.  I told him that Benji had come out from under the house and that I had tied him to the fence, so administering a shot to tranquilize him before beginning the euthanization was now possible.  Benji had to be secured because the risk of him attacking us was too great.

I went back outside to finish digging his grave.  He hadn't moved from where I had tied him.  As I was digging, the thought voices returned and I continued my conversation with all of them.  What made me change my mind about the euthanasia was the thought voice that said "Even God has abandoned you" ... This changed my mind because I knew that was a lie.  God has never abandoned me, ever.  The next thought voice I heard said, "Just give us a few days"  (amongst other things) ... I agreed.

I went back into the house, called the vet and told him a lie ... "Benji is back under the house" ... he told me to be careful and he would talk to me later. 

Benji is re-teaching me the meaning of love ... reminding me of how miracles work ... and that when there is a true miracle there doesn't need to be any human involvement, not even mine ... just my love to hold the space for God's Work.

Benji is good today.  Benji is happy today.  One day at a time Dear Jesus, One day at a time.

Selah.