Realizing That I had a Gift

I have been an Empath, Clairaudient, and Clairsentient for as long as I can recall, so I didn't have to learn how to "open up" to my psychic senses; rather, I had to learn how to "close down" so that I could live a semi-normal life.  I am also Clairvoyant, but that only comes as a sort of after affect to the previous three abilities ... in other words, I hear and feel things without even trying, but the "seeing" doesn't usually happen until after I have begun to feel or hear something. 

 
            I began searching for God well before my 12th birthday ~ Buddhist meetings, Lutheran Sunday school, and Sunday Mass at the Catholic church.  At the age of 15 I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour while attending Sunday Services at the Central Baptist church.  Today I have a personal relationship with God and Jesus, but it is not in the conventional sense, I am not associated with any religion, nor do I view God and Jesus the way most people do.  I have not read "Conversations with God" because I have my own conversations with "Him".  I will still attend a religious service on occasion when I feel there is a message waiting for me. 

            I'm not sure what spurred me on to search for God, perhaps the constant lucid dreams of the devil chasing me, perhaps I carried it over from previous life times that there was more to Who we are and to our understanding of God. As a child, I would sit on a swing in the park while my siblings and friends played around me, and I would contemplate the vastness of the Universe and the true identity of God.  Perhaps I simply had an inquiring mind. 

 
            Although I had visions and feelings of things that would happen, I still didn't realize I was any different than everyone else until I was 33 years old.  My friends would say that I was jinxing them when I would tell them that something was going to happen if they followed a particular route or course of action, maybe that's why I never really talked to anyone about my experiences until I met Stacey in Georgia.  

I was having a conversation with her about some of my experiences, and when she wasn't able to comprehend what I was telling her, I rephrased my experiences and asked her if she understood, she finally said, "No, I don't think that there are a lot of people who have those things happen to them."  I looked at her in amazement and said, "Really??  You mean you never ...." and she said, "No.  You sound like a 'mystic'."           "What's a mystic?"  I asked.    She proceeded to tell me that a 'mystic' was someone who had the type of experiences that I had been describing, that they could see and feel things that others couldn't, and that they understood things that most people don't.

 
            That conversation and her observations opened a door in my subconscious mind and I unknowingly began my journey in Awakening to a Higher Purpose.  I developed an appetite for reading and researching the "unknown", my Christian upbringing made it difficult to accept some of the things that I was uncovering, but I made myself keep an open mind about what I was discovering and experiencing as the Awakening process unfolded.  ...   It was shortly after this that I received the invitation to The Mystery School.